Fear of Falling…


Lets face it. There is a lot of things to be afraid of in this world. Just listen to the news for 15 minutes, you can probably find something disturbing enough to make you want to stay locked up inside for the rest of your life. Bad things happen all the time… even to the best of people. I understand being afraid of the unknown or failing. That is a natural instinct, but when you continuously use that fear as an excuse, you are never going to find change and live a life of fear forever. Who wants to live in fear forever? The world is a wonderful place too! Once I opened up my heart and came out of my shell a little bit, I found myself longing to get outdoors more and meet more people. I have met some amazing people in such a short amount of time. I am not afraid to smile and wave to a stranger on a walk. I feel stronger, confident, and more upbeat… and my world just seems to mirror that as well.

Failure is going to happen… I do not know a single person who has not failed at least once at one thing or another. If you never fail at anything, then you either do not try a lot of things… or you are just too awesome and I have no idea why you are reading this blog. (:p) I know a lot of people who are afraid to get healthy because they are afraid of failing…or never being able to eat their favorite foods. Of course you are going to have set backs… that scale is going to read the same numbers even though you swear up and down you did every thing right. It happens. You can still eat your favorite dishes… you may just have to cut back on some of the unneeded calories. You can have a delicious burger that is only 400 calories instead of getting one from a fast food joint for twice that amount… and personally, I think food tastes better when you make it yourself or share it with other people. So do not be afraid to reach out! Have a get together and challenge everyone to bring a low-calorie dish. This is a fun way to try new foods and find new favorites and also enjoy time with friends.

Do not let the fear keep you from achieving your dreams. There is never going to be a scare-free opportunity in your life. I am sure you are going to feel some anxiety every time you try something new. I have a lot of fears and doubts and worries. I am scared for my mom because she does not know how to make good choices for herself. I am afraid of eating a little too much and gaining all the weight I have lost. I am terrified of losing people close to me… It is scary. You never know what the day is going to bring. I have been on the side of the phone where you are told someone you love has passed on. It is a horrible place to be, but I refuse to spend my life waiting by the phone for another one of those phone calls. I need to appreciate what I have right now. Right now, I am in the best shape I have been in a long time. Right now, I am surrounded by people I love. Right now, I am living a healthier life. Right now, I am blessed.

I know the world may seem like a scary place… but I am happy to say each time I have fallen, someone has been there to help me up when I was not afraid to put my hand out. If you curl up in a ball in the corner and get frustrated by no one else helping, it’s probably because they just do not see you. Hold out your hand. You may be impressed by the number of people who want to see others succeed.

I will succeed on this journey. I will overcome negative sources in my life and try to turn them into positives. I will fall, but most importantly, I will get back up.

With the stress of the weekend, I gained 2 pounds. Most of it is just water from eating a little too much salty things, but still… I was hoping to reach my goal of 40 pounds today because I was only 1 pound away last week. Oh well! I will get there.

And so will you! Keep your head up. Someone is cheering for your success!


2 thoughts on “Fear of Falling…

  1. hey there – i’m late on my reply. You are right – you will never know what you are capable of if you don’t try in the first place. Are your usual weigh in days on Mondays? I feel like I make the worst decisions over the weekend and my nutritionist told me not to weigh the day or so after eating a “cheat meal” because the sodium really made youre weight fluxate (up). So I’m sure that the gain was just a result of that. Keep working hard – you WILL accomplish your goals. Just keep you focus – you will get there. I’m hoping to see a lower number this week, too. I’ve seen it before, but it’s been awhile. We’ll get there!

    • Psh. You can be never late! And I need a weigh in day… I am pretty scale obsessed right now… I just feel like I need to keep it in my mind… when I did weekly weigh ins, I found that I got off track more. =/ I know it isn’t good to be so scale obsessed…but I feel like I can’t help it! I am still afraid of it getting out of control or something… and I know you will make your goal!! =D I am really hoping to be two pounds lighter by the end of this week… I really need to push myself out of my comfort zone. I just wish the weather was a little nicer.

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