I closed my eyes as soon as I stepped onto the scale. I have not eaten badly the past week but I did have a glass of wine last night. I also had rice with dinner last night. Not much. Just a serving. But rice always makes me feel bloated. I was worried to see the damage of the wine and rice despite working so hard with hiking and horseback riding and haying. Lots of physical activity even though I have not really been doing any set exercises. I took in a deep breath knowing I was going to take that number how I always took it: a motivator. Whether it was good or bad.
And the answer…. GOOD. I am down to 214. I have lost 53 pounds. I am so excited! I still want to lose 7 more pounds before the end of the month but I am not quite sure that is going to happen… which is fine. I would love to at least get down to 210 before the month is over.
I am still astounded by how much I have changed… I have realized that my stomach is a lot less flatter. I don’t have to constantly pull down on my shirts to get them over my round belly. They just fit. For the first time in a really long time, I am starting to feel awesome about my body. I just need to remember I cannot become complacent because I feel good about myself… I have done that before in the past and the pounds just packed out because I thought I deserved ice cream or a sugary frozen drink… every single night in the summer. Then on top of that, I would drink alcohol. This summer is definitely going to be different. Ice Cream will only be a very rare treat, especially if I do a lot of outside activity on really hot days. No sitting in the apartment and just craving ice cream because it is sunny out. I must really work for it and know that I won’t be losing weight that time because of it.
This weekend there are no hiking trips in the works and that actually makes me sad. Am I becoming a hiker? Could I be craving that high every time we reach the top of a mountain? I think so. Even as I am hyperventilating as my fear of heights kicks in and my fiance is leaning over the edge of a bridge that helps cross a tall ledge… I am loving it.
The fiance and I are thinking about going on a road trip this weekend and that has me excited. I love road trips. I love going to new places we have never been before. We have almost gone on every single scenic route in Maine so far, which is really impressive. I love each of them in their own ways but I definitely love going to Western Maine. It is after all where
we keep the dragons have some really beautiful mountains.
Sometimes I cannot believe I am doing this.
I am becoming the person I always wanted to be.
Happy First Day of Summer!