I always feel so honored when people put me on their lists! I feel like you guys really read my blog or something. It is just nice to be recognized, yunno? Anyway, I do not really have time to list some facts and I have done it a few times already, so please excuse me! I did want to give a shout back to you two awesome girlies! Both entirely different blogs but both strong amazing women so I definitely recommend checking them out!
Today’s post is really about food relationships. I know people probably look at me and think that I am really intimate with my food since I had to have been stuffing my face all the time to balloon up to the high weight of 267. The truth is that my relationship with food has always been strained. I never constantly binged, but I did make a lot of wrong choices… or if I was trying to lose weight and go on one of my diets, I would just cut out food altogether and still end up gaining weight. My poor metabolism! I have always been really worried about food. Love how it tastes but man did it mess with my body when I was eating the wrong things… and then I embarked on this awesome journey to finally get healthy and take control of my life.
And I have gotten a lot better with my relationship with food but it still gets strained.
I still get absolutely petrified that I am going to gain all that weight back INSTANTLY. As soon as I eat the wrong thing, my mind is instantly going to worse case scenario. I am going to get on the scale and be 267 all over again. I know this is crazy, and it would take way more than just one wrong choice to make me gain all that weight back… but I just get nervous that that is eventually going to be me again. With this thinking, I always end up not eating enough and doing my body no good either. That was my problem in June. I just got so focused on weight, that I was super strict and ended up doing myself no favors. Counting my calories has allowed me to eat more and start losing weight once again. I need to learn not to be so afraid.
I know I can make good choices. I have also been busting my ass when it comes to exercise and therefore it wouldn’t be the end of the world if I had a little wine with dinner.
Especially with the holiday coming up (YAY FOURTH OF JULY), I shouldn’t be afraid to splurge a little. I am going to be horseback riding and doing the 30 Day Shred in the Morning, and then most likely swimming and hanging out with friends ALL AFTERNOON. I am going to be burning calories. I am not just going to be sitting on my ass and doing nothing, and I need to realize it is ok to just sit back and have some fun without being paranoid that I am going to gain back all the weight.
I am also going to be reading a new book: The Crazy Sexy Diet. It just arrived in the mail today and I am excited to start looking through it! I definitely need to make sure that I stick to whole foods as much as possible. I will let you guys know how it is and if I recommend it!
Today I have been pretty awesome. I went on a 1.5 mile run and did the 30 Day Shred (though I am really challenging my body so I really hope I am going to start getting stronger). I have burned about 550 calories today and have eaten close to 1000 calories, and according to MyFitnessPal have about 800 calories left to burn… but I try not to eat everything that I burned. I aiming for 500 calories for dinner tonight and that is it.
I hope everyone has a wonderful 4th of July (if you are American… or if you just happen to want to celebrate it…or are in the United States…whatevs. Anyone can enjoy some BBQ and fireworks!).