I hate this point where I am stuck in the moment of waiting. It makes me feel antsy and slightly out of control. Right now, I am waiting for my doctor’s appointment at 3:30 this afternoon to see what is wrong with my foot. Also on the forefront of my mind is waiting for my surgery to be done and over with. I feel like I am just stuck in this moment of in-between and it is really driving me crazy. This weekend we had plans to go hiking, and I was really pumped for it… but unfortunately my body had other plans. I spent the majority of my weekend, lying on the couch and eating bad food. You heard me. I ate a lot of bad food this weekend because I felt directionless. My husband was sick with a cold, and I am gimpy… and I just had no idea what to do with myself. I was pumped for hiking but knew my foot wouldn’t handle it. And I have become one of those people who do not like to stay still for very long. I like doing things! Just last year, I would have had no problem ordering out food and chowing down all day and night… but now, I don’t like it. So I am feeling very unaccomplished right now.
I am getting back to being serious about getting healthy and losing weight. I have been very lax lately with my alcohol consumption and what not. So I am not going to have any alcohol until my Birthday (about 2 weeks away). When I first started on this journey, I went months without alcohol so I think I should manage with 2 weeks. Also, Trying Not to be Fat is doing a Salad-A-Day challenge which I think is an awesome idea! So I am starting that today and doing that also for a whole entire week. Actually, I am planning on having smoothies for breakfast, salads for lunch, and then doing a nice balanced dinner. For one week. No alcohol (I feel like I need to keep saying this so I remember). I am hoping I have just bruised something in my foot and it will go away quickly. I really would like to do some active things this coming weekend.
Also, I keep giving myself excuses to eat things, especially with my impending jaw surgery (eat this now because for 6 weeks you won’t be able to eat it). Which is a really bad excuse. I am on this journey for the long haul so I shouldn’t start shoving a bunch of crap into my mouth just because for 6 weeks I don’t even have the option to eat it. I have gone all this time without really eating it, so I don’t see why another 6 weeks would kill me. So as of today, I am no longer using that surgery as an excuse.
This weekend wasn’t entirely horrible, though. We did manage to help a friend capture a kitten (she caught 2 on her own, and then we brought our cat whisperer friend over and we got the last kitten of the bunch!). Absolutely adorable.
With resting for most of the weekend, I decided to experiment for the first time ever with my nail polish. I am not one for creativity so this is a huge step for me, so don’t laugh, ok?
I also got to watch a lot of Battlestar Galactica and The Big Bang Theory so I got my nerd on… so that’s always nice. I just need to learn to watch my eating so I don’t feel so gross when I am not doing as much activity. I also need to remember that it is okay to rest when you are injured. I am not a failure. This is just a small little back step.
Oh! And I have decided on a theme for my birthday party! That’s right. I am doing the Evil Mastermind Party Idea! It’s going to be so much fun! I will let you know more of my evil plannings throughout the week! I also need to post the curry recipe. Don’t let me forget!
Now off to gimp around the grocery store! Get me some salad stuff.