Oh, my dearest sleep, I’m sorry,
For all the nights I took you for granted,
I never thought in all my years,
You would ever just get up and leave me.
We had such wonderful moments,
of me snoring and drooling,
I could never imagine,
You would get insulted by a new position,
and storm out leaving me wanting.
I had no choice but to sleep on my back!
My jaw would not allow the norm,
and instead of feeling pity,
You got angry and left.
For over a week, I have missed you.
I have prayed to feel the quickness of night speed by in dreams,
but despite my prayers, you did not come,
And I would spend hours, exhausted and bored.
But last night, you finally showed up,
As I could finally roll onto my side,
and you tucked me in, all nice and cozy,
And I did not wake up until the alarm!
So if you couldn’t gather, sleeping has been rough the past week. I was not allowed to sleep on my side which is the only way I know how to sleep, and it was so uncomfortable to sleep on my back. Last night, the swelling was finally down enough to allow me to turn my head at enough of an angle that my jaw was not really pressed against the pillow but my body was tricked into thinking it was in its normal sleeping position…. and wha-la! I slept. It was absolutely glorious.
I am also getting a lot better with my blended meals and had no trouble with the syringes yesterday! I had no idea just how thin the liquid it has to be and it took a lot of experimenting. If it is in anyway kind of pasty, it is not going to work. You may be able to suck it into the syringe, but it will be almost impossible to get into your mouth. There were a few times I almost broke down into tears because I was just so hungry and just could not figure out how I was going to get more substantial stuff food into my belly. Now, I am blending with a lot more confidence! For lunch yesterday, I had coconut chicken curry. Then for dinner had beef stew. And just so you guys understand where I am coming from, I took a picture of the syringe!
Not quite confident to show pictures of my swollen face, but yesterday was the first time I used the syringe out in public. Oh the looks people give you… I wonder what reasons they were coming up in their head for why I was drinking my coffee out of that!
I am starting to make plans which will help speed up time which is good! I need things to concentrate on the short term so I don’t keep thinking about 5 weeks from now when I will have my wires off. I need to remember that I can live my life each day, regardless of the circumstance.