I keep disappearing, mostly because I never have anything successful to say. My eating has been pretty gross and my exercise is almost nil. NIL. Ugh. I can feel my muscles becoming more flabby and it has been making me sad. Instead of facing this straight on, I have been avoiding everything that reminds me of what journey I am on. I am on a journey to awesomehood. Not a journey to sit in front of a computer all day and play games. Nut uh. I am about living. I am about seeing the world. I am about feeling good about myself. These things need to take a priority again.
It is hard balancing school with everything else. By the end of the day, I feel a little “Blargh” and like my mind wants to explode… a little bit. And I avoided the blog world because I thought that would only make it worse, when I am pretty sure quite the opposite would occur. I would feel inspired and happy! But I would also feel like I would have to do things. Like go to the gym. And make a healthy grocery list.
Currently my goal is to take it one day at a time. Today, I have already exercised, and I had a high fiber breakfast. I plan on getting my homework done this morning and then work on studying for my Food and Nutrition exam. I need to get back to seeing my horse on a regular schedule. No excuses. So I am going to see her today. I know I can do this because I have done it before.
My weight has been fluctuating between 185 – 190. I am really tired of losing and regaining the same pounds over and over again. Time to focus up. Time to change. I cannot use school work and it being winter as an excuse. A little cold is not going to kill me.
So here is to a day where I plan on writing down everything I eat, not sneak any chocolate, and being on track.
Just one day.
And then I will do it again tomorrow.