Accountability… What’s that?


I have to say back sliding is one of the hardest things to admit to. Excuses start with “I’m just retaining water,” or “I am a little stressed… it won’t take much to get back to where I was.” And those excuses keep coming until you can really rationalize that you have GAINED weight back. It’s there. It’s hanging on your hips, pulling down on your tummy, and making your belly shake and your butt jiggle. Your MyFitnessPal app still has you at your lowest weight and you feel ashamed to change it. It’s been almost a year since I have seen 185 on the scale. It’s time to face the music.Take the plunge. Start from Square 2 (not 1 at least!) and get back on track. This week, I admitted to myself and MyFitnessPal that I had officially gained 20 pounds in the past year. I can finally mark progress when I lose weight instead of seeing that daunting 185 and wondering when the heck I will ever see that number on the scale again.

onestepcloserLast weekend, I went away for my first business trip ever. It was terrifying at first to be pushed out of my comfort zone and go to a place where I did not truly know everyone. I love my coworkers and boss, but it is an entirely different element to hang out with them for 5 days straight in one of the craziest cities I have been to: Vegas. I would not trade that time for the world. My comfort zones were stretched in places they really needed to be and learn to just let go and live. The classes were inspiring and I walked away with information I could apply to my job but also my life. One of those lessons was about accountability. Finding out what your big picture goal is and then breaking it down by year, by month, by week, and by day. Every single day you should be doing something to achieve your goals. Whether it be a fitness goal, a business goal, a personal goal. Every day you have to dedicate some time to achieving something to improve yourself. If you find yourself thinking you are perfect, you have mostly just become complacent and forgotten how to dream. There is ALWAYS something you can be doing to become a better version of yourself. To help in achieving those goals, you have to become open with them. Tell people. Friends. Family. Someone who can help in achieving them. When you keep your goals bottled up, you never know who can help you and you also have no one keeping you accountable. No one helping you to strive to a better version of yourself.

I admit that in the past year I became complacent. I was just going through the motions. Work, watch TV, see my pony. livelifeinjoyThere wasn’t much in the “bettering me” department. I gained weight and got lazy despite going to the gym, I only did the bare minimum. This business trip was exactly what I needed to light a fire under my ass and find my passion. Find who I want to be inside. My goals for 2015 are starting to shape up! This is what I have so far:

1. Get to 165 pounds by the end of the year. I will be at 195 by the end of April and back to my original weight by the end of May.

2. Work out 3x a week at the gym. Horseback ride Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday.

3. Get the inside of the house painted by August. Dedicate one room per month.

4. Pay off ONE credit card by the end of December.

5. Go on 15 Hikes (all being 2+ miles long).

Those are my 5 main personal goals this year. I plan on blogging at least once a week to keep you all updated on my progress. Now what I want to know is…

What are your goals? What do you want out of 2015 for yourself? Let me know in the comment below and maybe we can help each other stay accountable.

Reasons I Need a Dog and Why Every Meal Counts


1. A dog gets me up earlier in the day and therefore makes me feel more productive.

2. More exercise that does not feel like exercise.

3. Looking into his cute adorable face makes my heart melt and I forget about a lot of things (ok, so sometimes that interferes with the whole productive part…)

4. I get along better with dogs than I do cats. I love my 2 kitties dearly, but there is just something about a person and their dog.

5. Dogs help you meet more people! And people want to hang out with you and your dog. True story.


There are a lot of reasons why I need a dog, but mostly the exercise part has been key while dogsitting my mom’s Corgi. I went on 4 decent sized walks yesterday (probably came out to be a little more than 2 miles of walking). This morning when I got on the scale? I was down an additional pound. It felt amazing. I am now just one pound off from hitting the 220’s. I like to imagine it will be all down hill now to get below 200, but I know it will be just as hard to get there. It just feels so much closer than when I was in the 230’s. I do not know what the mental block is exactly but the 230’s still feel extremely close to my starting weight of 267. I know it is over a 30 pound weight loss(!), but it still feels too close to comfort. For some reason, just one pound into the 220’s feels like I have really made a difference and that I am going down the right path. Am I crazy or does anyone else feel the same way about their weight? Are there numbers just too close to comfort? Numbers that make you feel more accomplished? I could be crazy — that is not out of the realm of possibility!

I know I said I was going to be doing a post this week on budgeting and meal plans, but life got in the way… and then I totally forgot it was Easter this weekend, and I have invited my mom to come down for a home cooked meal (since she hasn’t had many of those for awhile) and just to hang out and get to know the area. So when you are cooking for more people, it is definitely a little bit harder to do a whole post on healthy eating and budgeting when the fiance and I splurged on some extras to really give my mom a nice time… so instead, I promise to do the post NEXT week on budgeting and healthy eating. For right now, my advice is just to cut back on things you have gotten into the habit of doing. Such as putting a teaspoon less of sugar in your coffee/tea, instead of drinking 3 sodas go down to 2, instead of ordering 3 soft tacos get 2, instead of eating out exchange a night for a home cooked meal…etc. It really is easy to become overwhelmed by a lifestyle change and you do not want to set yourself up to fail. Start small and work your way up! I feel like I keep saying the same thing over and over again… but I keep seeing people doing too much all at once and then back sliding. Also this is a lifestyle change… whatever you eat is part of your diet… there is no “off night” from your diet. Those calories still count. Your body is not going to all of a sudden be like “Oh, you’re right… you have been working so hard, please eat whatever you like tonight. This one is on me.” NO! Those calories count. You can eat whatever you like, whenever you like… but if you are serious about losing weight and making a change, you cannot think about this as a diet you can turn on and off. Every meal counts.

I am now off for my 2nd walk of the day and it is before 10!  I could get used to this… on the other hand, the cats are wishing for him to disappear!

Hello world!


Hi World!


Hopefully this is the beginning of a beautiful and wonderful relationship as we go through hardships, successes, goal making and milestones together. Today is the day I tell my biggest secret and hopefully inspire you to come back tomorrow to learn a bit more on how to lose weight and change the bad habits that are weighing you down (it isn’t just the pounds but your attitude as well!). First things first, I recommend you click on that happy little “About Me” button to your right. That way you can get to know me a little bit better without me having to repeat too much here.  Ok… you back yet?  Did I scare you off? Or do you feel a little bit inspired that you too can change your life? Good! That’s what I was hoping for. So as you know by now I was at a very bad, unhealthy weight that was keeping me from doing the things that I love and things that I wanted to love doing. All I wanted to do was chill on the couch and be lazy all the time, but I was getting fed up quickly. I no longer enjoyed riding horses because it was uncomfortable for me. I did not like going out for walks. I did not like swimming (even though it was my favorite thing to do as a child but being overweight does not help the whole bathing suit wearing process). It was just very sad that my favorite activities had been pushed aside because food meant more to me than going outside.

Now there is always a reason for why you became overweight in the first place. A lot of the reason is because you have turned to food for comfort (like I do), but there are other reasons. You may have gained a little when becoming pregnant. You may have gained because of an injury that didn’t allow you to keep exercising at the pace you were used to. There are so many different reasons why. I am going to be discussing more about the emotional side of gaining weight and losing weight because that’s where I am coming from, but the recipes, tips, and exercises can be used for everyone! By no means am I a professional and results may vary depending on the person. This blog is to help others but also to keep me accountable too.

So anyway, back to the reasons of becoming overweight. You really have to come to terms with this before you can start making any drastic changes. If you don’t address the problem, you will never find a permanent solution. You will keep yo-yo dieting until you give up dieting completely and live a life that is not to your full potential. That is your first task. Identify why you want to change.

I will give my account on how I made the change from eating to exercising tomorrow! I feel like I don’t want to overwhelm everyone all at once with too much information! Or burn myself out. So check on in tomorrow or have updates sent directly to your email by putting in your email address in on the right!

I look forward to hearing from you and hope together we can reach our goals!