Accountability… What’s that?


I have to say back sliding is one of the hardest things to admit to. Excuses start with “I’m just retaining water,” or “I am a little stressed… it won’t take much to get back to where I was.” And those excuses keep coming until you can really rationalize that you have GAINED weight back. It’s there. It’s hanging on your hips, pulling down on your tummy, and making your belly shake and your butt jiggle. Your MyFitnessPal app still has you at your lowest weight and you feel ashamed to change it. It’s been almost a year since I have seen 185 on the scale. It’s time to face the music.Take the plunge. Start from Square 2 (not 1 at least!) and get back on track. This week, I admitted to myself and MyFitnessPal that I had officially gained 20 pounds in the past year. I can finally mark progress when I lose weight instead of seeing that daunting 185 and wondering when the heck I will ever see that number on the scale again.

onestepcloserLast weekend, I went away for my first business trip ever. It was terrifying at first to be pushed out of my comfort zone and go to a place where I did not truly know everyone. I love my coworkers and boss, but it is an entirely different element to hang out with them for 5 days straight in one of the craziest cities I have been to: Vegas. I would not trade that time for the world. My comfort zones were stretched in places they really needed to be and learn to just let go and live. The classes were inspiring and I walked away with information I could apply to my job but also my life. One of those lessons was about accountability. Finding out what your big picture goal is and then breaking it down by year, by month, by week, and by day. Every single day you should be doing something to achieve your goals. Whether it be a fitness goal, a business goal, a personal goal. Every day you have to dedicate some time to achieving something to improve yourself. If you find yourself thinking you are perfect, you have mostly just become complacent and forgotten how to dream. There is ALWAYS something you can be doing to become a better version of yourself. To help in achieving those goals, you have to become open with them. Tell people. Friends. Family. Someone who can help in achieving them. When you keep your goals bottled up, you never know who can help you and you also have no one keeping you accountable. No one helping you to strive to a better version of yourself.

I admit that in the past year I became complacent. I was just going through the motions. Work, watch TV, see my pony. livelifeinjoyThere wasn’t much in the “bettering me” department. I gained weight and got lazy despite going to the gym, I only did the bare minimum. This business trip was exactly what I needed to light a fire under my ass and find my passion. Find who I want to be inside. My goals for 2015 are starting to shape up! This is what I have so far:

1. Get to 165 pounds by the end of the year. I will be at 195 by the end of April and back to my original weight by the end of May.

2. Work out 3x a week at the gym. Horseback ride Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday.

3. Get the inside of the house painted by August. Dedicate one room per month.

4. Pay off ONE credit card by the end of December.

5. Go on 15 Hikes (all being 2+ miles long).

Those are my 5 main personal goals this year. I plan on blogging at least once a week to keep you all updated on my progress. Now what I want to know is…

What are your goals? What do you want out of 2015 for yourself? Let me know in the comment below and maybe we can help each other stay accountable.

It Burns!


One of the things I have definitely let slide this year is my fitness. I only ran a handful of times, definitely did not go hiking as much as I was originally planning (and wanting), and only hayed once. My only real saving grace in the fitness department was riding my horse at least 3 times a week and going on walks. I definitely did not push myself to my limits, but I am starting to make a change in that department. My current fitness schedule is looking like this: Gym on Monday, Wednesday and Friday evenings with the husband. And then starting today, I am doing Jillian’s 30 Day Shred. I plan on doing that on my off days from the gym: Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. In between all this, I still plan on riding my pony at least twice a week (I start slacking off and giving her more time off in the winter mostly because I am a big baby when it comes to the cold! Especially riding in a leather saddle… I am afraid my butt is just going to freeze off). 


So this morning was my first time in over a year doing Jillian’s 30 Day Shred… and boy, am I feeling it already. It is a nice feeling and exhausting feeling all at the same time. By the end of the work out, my 2 pound weights felt like they were 20 pounds and my legs had turned into noodles. Definitely out of shape! I am planning on doing level 1 for the next 2 weeks and then working up to level 2. Hoping by the end of December I will be gutsy enough to at least try the dreaded level 3… we shall see!

Not much else is going on my life right now… been kicking butt in school for the most part. So far I have aced all my exams and I am feeling pretty good about that. Been watching a lot of football (my friend has converted me into a fan! And I pretty much understand things for the most part… even though I still say stupid things like “They were in the touchdown zone!” instead of saying “end zone” Oh well. Close enough!). I have become a Broncos fan because 1.) there mascot is a horse and 2.) my husband is from Colorado so it is nice rooting with him! 

ImageYes, I even painted my nails Bronco colors! Hopefully it gives them luck on one of their hardest games coming up this Sunday! Now you really can’t watch Football with friends without having snacky options and I have been doing fairly well offering pretty healthy snacks including a Skinny Queso Dip, a Greek yogurt ranch dip for broccoli and carrots, turkey chili with homemade cornbread, and this coming Sunday I plan on making easy low calorie mozzarella sticks! Stay tune for recipes because I am sure there are other football fans wanting yummy healthy suggestions.

First weigh-in on this re-motivation train is on Friday! Here is to hopefully a successful week! 


Weekend of Success!


This has been a great weekend getting remotivated in fitness and healthy eating despite being away with the girls for all day Saturday and Sunday morning. I was definitely nervous because it was a lot of eating out, and sometimes I just like to throw caution to the wind and eat whatever I am craving. This weekend I tracked everything. I even got the motivation to wake up early on Saturday morning and go out for a jog in tge frigid air before embarking on a 2 hour trip South to look at Bridesmaid dresses and wedding dresses for the bride. There was a lot of walking around stores, trying on dresses, and doing a little shopping for ourselves. I burned over 700 calories that day and ate a little more than my normal calorie amount (around 1600 calories instead of 1400), and still had 500 calories left from what I had burned. I would say that was successful! Yay!

Today, I did not do as amazing mostly because I was a little less active. Drove back home, went horse back riding, and made homemade cornbread to go with the turkey chili my husband made. I am a little over where I want to be calorie wise because unfortunately I am lacking in healthy snacks at home because I ate the last yogurt on Monday.  Ooops. I do blame on horseback riding again tomorrow and not having any of the pie my mom is getting for her birthday tomorrow.

Trying on dresses was definitely very motivating. I am currently a size 14 but would love to be a size 10 by next Summer. Though I have been maintaining my weight, I have definitely gotten more flabby. Need to work on getting back in shape definitely. Please help keep me motivated!

Sorry this post was not as exciting as I wanted… we really did not take pictures this weekend. Ooops. Maybe the next time we go down in December. Also I am on the hubby’s tablet and I am not a huge fan of it. Haha but we are all cuddled in the living 

room watching the Bronco’s game! Whoooooo! Yes, during the course of a year, I have become a fan of football. I have been making healthy football fan food! Stay tune for recipes!


Hope everyone had a kick ass weekend! How are you feeling going into Monday?

Too Much Driving and 8 Week Post-Op!


Today the husband and I made the long trek up North to see the oral surgeon and to see if the doctor is pleased with the results. Unfortunately, the doctor is a 2 hour and fifteen minute drive away and my appointment was at 8am. Which means I had to get up at 5am. I don’t do early mornings very well, especially if I was up until 11:30 the night before playing games (I know it is my own darn fault… but you just get sucked in). Because of the super early morning, we decided to grab something on the road. I ended up getting a small peppermint mocha made with skim milk and the husband and I split 10 munchkins (I had 4 and he had 6). Not the best choice in the world but I wasn’t sure how I could handle biting into a sandwich and driving. I did feel proud of myself knowing that in the past, the husband and I would have split a 20 box (most likely evenly). That was a lot of calories. Those little munchkins really add up! The sugar was a good enough boost to get me feeling energetic on the drive up there, though. I was a little bit nervous about what the doctor would say. I have been doing my jaw exercises, but didn’t know if it was progressing as fast as it should be.

The doctors are pretty ecstatic with the results! I backslid a little bit but that is to be expected with the muscles adjusting, and it was a pretty severe move of the jaw. We took my “after pictures” that were so dramatic compared to my “before” shots that they are actually going to use my picture to convince other people who may need the surgery as well. YAY! It is awesome to see that I actually have a jaw now!

After the appointment, we met up with some friends in the area for a second breakfast/early lunch. The doctor gave me the go ahead to experiment with all foods now, so I decided to get my first breakfast sandwich in ages. I ended up getting an egg white biscuit with a slice of Canadian bacon on it, a 100 calorie hash brown, and a bottle of water.

When it was time to go home, I was really feeling the lack of sleep. I was utterly exhausted and so was the husband (since he was in the same boat). I had planned to go jogging as soon as I came home, but ended up having a small Thanksgiving bowl (a 530 calories dish I invented with Thanksgiving leftovers) and got on the computer to write a blog post instead! Food wise, I am at where I should be… around 1330 calories. Mostly I am craving things because I am tired… so I am just going to try to take it as easy as possible and avoid eating empty calories just because I am feeling a little low! I know once I get a good night’s rest under my belt, I will be good to go tomorrow morning.

Tomorrow morning, I plan on spending some time with my horse, Daisy and then go on a small jog to make up for my lack of activity today.

Do you have any goals you want to accomplish before the week is done?

I Fell In Love…



With my Crock Pot!

Yesterday was my first time experience using a crock pot… I am a little behind on the times! Now I have no idea why it took the husband and I so long to actually get one! What have we been doing all this time? Luckily the husband had some prior experience so he could give me some worldly advice of the device but for the most part I tackled the first dish all by myself. I decided to go with something simple and easy… Chicken and Dumplings. Also, I needed things that I know would be soft and easy to manage since I still do not have a very good handle on my chewing (it is getting better, though! Every day there is remarkable improvement… at least I think so).

The recipe I found online was a little lacking so I decided to wing it a little bit and it turned out absolutely delicious. It is so easy to throw together so it is perfect for when you are feeling rushed. These are the ingredients:

2 Cans of Cream of Chicken Soup (I got the 98% fat free… but you can also get the healthy recipe)

2 tablespoons of butter

2 Cups of Water

2 heaping teaspoons chicken bouillon

4 skinless boneless chicken breast halves (or about 1.5 pounds of chicken)



Poultry Seasoning

Garlic Powder

One package of refrigerated biscuit dough

1. Dump one can of the cream of chicken soup into the crock pot

2. Put the chicken breasts on top of that.

3. Season with salt, pepper, and poultry seasoning so the breasts are covered. Add a dash of garlic powder.

4. Cover with the second can of cream of chicken.

5. Fill with water so chicken is covered. (it took me about 2 cups)

6. Add 2 teaspoons of chicken bouillon and the 2 tablespoons of butter.

7. Set to High if you want the meal to be done in 5 – 6 hours, set to Low if it is going to be cooking for 8+ hours.

8. A half hour before serving, break biscuit dough into small bite size clumps and drop into the slow cooker. Serve once the dough is cooked in the center (about 30 minutes).

I served mine with really cooked broccoli (needed it mushy so I could actually eat it) and it was sooo delicious!

Look at that tender chicken! I am so excited to have it again for dinner! =D


It makes about 4 – 5 servings. About 500 calories.

So delicious. I highly recommend it!

What I’ve Been Nomming


My food repertoire is not all that exciting normally but I wanted to give you guys a little run down about what I have been enjoying lately. Normally the only meal that changes pretty frequently is dinner… but anyway. This is what I have been eating this past week.


1. Smoothies: Yummy. With my surgery coming up, I have been preparing by having more smoothies. My mouth is going to be wired shut for 6 weeks. No, this is not a weight loss scam or anything. It’s because I have an extreme overbite (in pictures, I will try to correct this because I am very self conscious of it and bring my lower jaw forward). Because of this overbite, I only chew on four teeth (my molars) and get really bad migraines because of how I grind my teeth. So in a few weeks (the surgery is on September 26th), I will be on a liquid diet. So lots of smoothies! My favorites right now are Pumpkin Pie Smoothies and Peanut Butter Cup Smoothies.

So Yummy for only 255 calories. Part of a tasty breakfast!

Larabars: I absolutely love these fruit bars! My favorites are the Peanut Butter Cookie and the Blueberry Muffin. They range in the calorie range of 180 – 220. If I am in a hurry, I usually just grab a bar and drink some almond milk and go off about my day in the morning. Since yesterday I was doing a lot of driving, I just munched on one for lunch. I seriously do not go  a week without having at least 3 of these.

Curry: My husband made this big delicious batch of Coconut Chicken Curry. It has red potatoes and carrots in it and super filling! You can put it over a bed of rice or eat it by itself as a sort of curry stew. I love it. Even if my husband accidentally put way too much curry powder in it.

Oh man, I am drooling just thinking about it…


Pesto: I absolutely love Pesto. Love it. Love it. Love it. I could eat it ALL the time. It’s so easy to whip up. About a cup and a half of fresh basil leaves, some salt and pepper, 3 tablespoons of pine nuts, a half cup of grated Parmesan cheese, 3 cloves of garlic blended in a food processor with some olive oil added in. Then on the stove top heat up a 3/4 cup of heavy cream and a tablespoon of butter until the butter is  melted. Add the Basil mix with the cream mixture and then mix over the top of cooked noodles. I use the Smart Taste Rotini. I have been having this a lot lately. Of course I have no pictures because I just devour it.

Bacon: Yes, I still eat bacon. I think I have had bacon twice this week for breakfast. Real bacon too. Not made from turkey or chicken or whatever. As long as you are smart about it and don’t eat a whole package of bacon, it’s really not that bad. You need fat and cholesterol in your diet so what better way to get it?


So that’s pretty much what I have been chowing down on lately. There’s been other things too… like taco dip and low fat brownies (which you guys have already seen).

I eat relatively normal for being on a “diet.” I never feel deprived. No, I can’t have ice cream every single night… but I can have it once every two weeks, and really, you don’t need ice cream that often. If you are craving fast food, you can just make it yourself. You can have fries, just have them baked instead. Go ahead and have a burger. Just don’t have a half pounder because you do not need that much. Feeling like you are going to explode is not what feeling full feels like. That’s not a good place to put your stomach. Eat slowly and when you feel content, like “Yeah I could eat more but it won’t make much of a difference,” that’s when you stop eating. Listen to your body and you can enjoy a lot!

Summer Snackin’


Today is your lucky day because you get two posts! Yay! Granted the other post was mostly just pictures to make you jealous want to visit Maine and hang out with me.  This is going to be another sort of quick post just for anyone that may be craving something a little sweet but is terrified of calories (which you shouldn’t be terrified of but that’s a completely different post!).

Back last year, I was a huge baker. I love creating tasty yumyums and then eating them, which unfortunately packed on the pounds even more. Since my weight loss journey, I have gotten less creative in the kitchen and it has been a huge bummer. I definitely miss it but I have been so afraid of making treats because I really do not want to eat them all. I do have to admit, I can make some really tasty sweets. I even have the apron to prove it!

Apron? Must be official.

When the weather is really warm out, you don’t want to bake so I came up with a great solution… Not baking! I am pretty amazing like that. Instead, I decided to make a chocolatey dip/pudding/thing. It’s super easy to make and won’t break your calorie-bank. I definitely don’t feel guilty or bloated after devouring it in my kitchen, chocolate coating my whole entire face and a crazed look in my eye. Just another day in my journey to becoming awesome. So enough of the jibber-jabber and on to this…


The Promise Land! I mean Dessert.

Step One: Buy Something to Use for Dipping. Strawberries are divine.

Step Two: Grab a 6oz thing of plain or vanilla Greek yogurt, mix in 2 tablespoons of cocoa powder (I used Hershey’s Special Dark because it sounded mysterious), add a teaspoon of vanilla extract, a tablespoon or two of maple syrup (REAL maple syrup. I will know if you use the corn syrup kind and I will be disappointed! Shaking my head at you from around every corner), and stir. I also added in a few chocolate chips because I am a little naughty. Let it sit for awhile in the fridge (I find it tastes a lot better when the flavors have a chance to sit and mix on their own).

Step Three: Devour like a maniac.

If you eat the whole entire thing with a cup of strawberries, you are looking at 200 – 220 calories depending on how much maple syrup you add. Not too shabby when compared to ice cream and other desserts. Definitely a little bit of an indulgence, but not as bad as other indulgences… and it’s better for you anyway! It’s definitely filling enough that you could probably split the serving into 2.

Quick, simple, delicious.